Shining Light

Heaviness in my chest,

Worry in my mind,

Sadness in my soul.

Motivation has disappeared,

Dwelling on the days past,

Scared to get help.

Feelings stuck inside,

Unable to let them out,

Unsure how to explain them to loved ones,

Not wanting to let others take on my burden.

The wings I use to fly are fractured,

Close to being broken,

Close to being useless,

On the edge of losing their color,

Falling off completely.

But then you came along,

You had been there the whole time,

Wishing for me to talk to you,

Tell you my feelings.

It has always been hard to express my feelings through speech,

But you are always so patient with me,

Always next to me when I need you,

Wanting to help me in any way you can.

Wanting to listen to me,

Understand what I’m going through,

Feeling terrible and heartbroken when you can’t,

Knowing I want to seek help, but am afraid to.

You have always been a huge part of my support system,

And I’m sorry for not confiding in you when I need it the most,

But no matter how hard it is for me to tell you my feelings,

You have never left my side.

It’s crazy how much life changes in so little time,

How much your mind can linger and dwell on things that it shouldn’t,

And how blind you can be with those directly in front of you who want to help,

Who want to see you happy again,

Who want to see you smile.

Thanks to you,

I am whole,

Even if my mind is shattered,

In a dark place that I sometimes can’t crawl out of,

But you will always be my shining light,

The light that brings me back from my darkness.

Forces me to come back and see how beautiful the world around me is,

Making me laugh when I don’t want to,

Trying to lighten the mood even when you know I want to sit in sorrow for a little longer.

So I thank you for always trying to pull me out,

Being my light,

And bringing me happiness when I need it the most.